What if I am much more than my past mistakes and beliefs about myself?
What if I were able to forgive those, and those I believed had hurt me and misunderstood me?
What if I could start a fresh page in my story right now and rewrite all that no longer serves me?
What if right now is really all that there really ever is and was and will be?
What if I could really love myself the way I try to love everyone else?
What if I could choose love and joy in every moment instead of fear and judgement, of self and others?
What if I allowed myself the fun I so often hold back on?
What if tomorrow was my last day, how would I live each moment?
What if I truly believed I was lovable and fun and worthy of being listened to and appreciated?
What if I was able to remember to play and make my child (and inner child) laugh more?
What if I was finally able to nourish my body and soul in the ways it craves to be cared for?
What if I could look in the mirror and smile and really see myself, see beauty and not flaws?
What if I was brave enough to find my voice and sing the song that has been trapped inside me for far too long now?
What if I wholeheartedly believed that I have a gift to share too, like everyone else in this world?
What if I wasn't an exception to all the compassion and forgiveness I hand out to others every day?
What if I I could let go of labels like 'boring' and 'rude' and 'fat' and fill all my dark corners with everlasting light?
What if I could wake up in the morning with joy in my heart, grateful for another day to live my truth and lovingly make time for writing and dancing and mindful breathing while also gracefully tending to all the needs of all the precious people, animals and plants in my care?
What if I could put all my building blocks I've collected over the years together and build the life I am worthy of living?
What if I could fearlessly embody the magnicence I am meant to shine through?
What if I could take a tiny moment like a ladybird on my beautiful boy's hand and let the gratitude of that simple yet profound presence permeate all that is?
I put these thoughts out this particular sleepless night as prayers filled with hope for a more peaceful, present and joyful tomorrow.
Thank you Zsuzsi for the inspiration ❤️
Yours truly,
N
